Wait, has Steph said I did something to hurt her?
Is that what Stella meant by the lone sentence, "my mom and I are great!"
I am shocked.
This woman never interacts with me, but to scream and hit me the day before dad visits. Each time, she screamed and cried some horrible story and I didn't know she was talking about me! I thought she was explaining that someone was very mean to her so that's why she was mean to me?
OMG. That's why. So people were afraid of me or hated me. But they kept calling, bc they were paid by sm. Ok. A student therapist called me a lump on a log, and that was the most accurate description of me i'd ever heard.
Omg why is Steph making me move in with her?!
Please
Please
Please
Please
Pleaseeeee don't make me. Each time she has me move in, I have to leave in the middle of the night and I lose all of my belongings. Every time.
Please. Let me heal.
Let me pay my rent, cut her out, so she can't pretend like she's some expert on me. Please. Please. I know you have given me so much. But it all goes to food bc I am always terrified. I am always healing something. I've spent most of my life healing. Each time you think I'm well, and you look away, she stabs a fork into my shoulders.
So don't leave me here.
Don't let her find me.
You can go then, I know how to heal.
Come back when I start to live. I'll need advice then.
For now, I need peace and safety to continue healing.
Explain to Steph, she has always hated me bc I remind her of my father too much. That it is no good for Steph to live with something she hates so much.
