It wasn't until #metoo, when I had become an adult and imagined hurting children, I couldn't. I think it's genetic. Yi never laid a finger on me. Soon threw me down the stairs by my ponytail.
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This is as dad officially introduced his new wife
BC of Jessica Hong's mother's post shame fueled campaign, and Steph being 3 hours late, "mom please, she won't leave me alone, where are you?"
"WORK!!!!!!! WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO, LEAVE THE GAS STATION?!!!!!"
She screamed so loudly, her voice shrilling through the phone silenced the entire after school crowd waiting for their rides. So I didn't call after the 2nd time. I never called Steph again.
I disassociated from 07/28/97 to 2018. Not bc of 1997. BC Steph beat and screamed on a schedule. I was missing incisors with half finished veneers from 1998-2001. Then 2003-2006.
BC she stopped paying rent every November. BC she called the police.
For 20 years my eating disorder and untreated MODY basically left me with Alzheimer's. Living over a decade in a 250sqft apartment where each winter I broke a shopvac on mice poop. I'm finally clearing up the parasites and on insulin. But with one eye and ckd at ii. It doesn't matter, knowing she lied all this time, kept me unwell to keep getting paid ... I feel so free. Finally, something makes sense.
And now I have to live with her. BC she wants to steal my furniture. At least I know I won't die. At least now I know she needs me alive to get paid.
I'm 41. I'm sure it's genetic.
May I heal? May I cut her off? I want to go far far away, where no one can find me. I know it followed me to Costa Rica. Stella sent me there. Steph knew about the cook from Madrid, how? I'll keep going further where even Stella's ableism can't reach. I deserve to know a life that has nothing to do with my birth.
I know I'm supposed to feel the shackles of marriage to fully understand your behavior. You are a man. No one condemns you to rapable bc you smoke cigarettes.
