Little won't get me a job, or a husband, or ambition
All this energy spent trying to heal Little isn't optional
Little Me needs to be not frightened for enough days in a row, so that when Monster frightens, Little proves it to herself she survives.
For Little to heal, we don't fight, we don't scream
I say it's ok to scream when it hurts, don't clamp down like that. The only one who needs you quiet is your abuser, so she can abuse you again.
She doesn't do revenge,
Little concluded revenge has zero benefit
Revenge with how time consuming it is, a net loss so large generations are in debt
I see now, why my warden says that's who I am, is bc that's who she intended me to be
Little Me survived 20 years of daily torture, she's bad ass
Middle Me tried drinking the Kool Aid, to do as I was told. Siblings always blaming me for not maintaining peace. Middle Me did exactly as she was told, for 20 years. And there was peace, immediately after almost dying. Over and over again, there was peace - after failing to evade the inevitable death trap, and only making out by Dear Leader saving my life at the last second. There was much to be grateful for. Middle Me never had to fight for our life, bc Little did it too well
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Little Me doesn't want to hurt, herself or anyone else. That's why we have to take her out of here. Middle Me did the hard work, gave sis and bro limitless opportunities. They don't want anything to do with me.
Little, Middle, Future Me begged warden to do what is non evil. Warden, do you agree A is always evil, and B,C,D are not evil? What do you choose.
A.
Smirk, and what are you going to do about it retard.
And that's the rub. To their core, retards are not people, not animal with the ability to feel pain. And for me to ask for equality is an affront to their god and their science. And I say equity is baseline.
Little Me deserves to know safety before she dies. And that's away from here. Away from anyone who relies on exsm for their pay. The only thing in the world, for all of Infinity, Little Me wants, is Stephanie Yang to have no access to her.
