OMG this woman,
SO MUCH preemptive. I might not survive learning all truths about her.
Was Stella instructed on my actual buttons? First winter break home from NY, we were supposed to take NJ transit together, plan was to meet at the station. I waited until midnight bc I thought my ticket would expire the next day. Turns out, hrr brother picked her up. She didn't call my cell bc it had a PA area code and she would have to pay for her long distance call on her dorm line. So she called my dorm's 646 number from her 212. She said. There were no messages on my machine.
Stella also donated plasma, put her name on the donor list with my phone number bc she shared one phone with 2 roommates. I had several parents, husbands, wives leaving vm begging me to call them back bc I was a match and could save a life. Emailed Stella about each call. The same mom called and left minutes long vm about her dying daughter, who did die.
Dad had been murdered that October. The day I got the call from Jen saying Dad died, Paura Stella Heo took me to century21 then disappeared. I couldn't leave century 21 until Stella reappeared. Not before on the walk to century21, reminded me how Dad missed all of my graduations and birthdays. I was agitated by his multiple unexcused absences, we were on our way to go houseware shopping, bc Steph had told Paura Stella Heo, dad was buying a brownstone in Cadman Plaza for us.
Does everyone know my buttons? Do you guys know those are my PTSD buttons? Buttons from like before I turned 10. I become pliable bc I'm a 5yo who is reliving the time she almost died from punishment for existing.
Mercifully, I never buy any clothes when Stella and I go shopping. She gets me to buy so much.
