Tuesday, December 23, 2025

optics Christmas Village

So all this time, I was rumored to have abused Rich.  Why is Steph asking me to take him around the city?  Get him to the zoo, from 18th and spring garden without a car.  Take him to the xgames.  Scouts day Camden acqurium.  Opening nutcracker at phila ballet. I did it because it's Rich.  Did he do it bc he thought I asked?

Every year, he takes a good amount of time to pick out bespoke dog treats, forgot his wallet in the car, and then I pay for everything, I'm grumpy for the rest of the outing bc $100 dog treats means I'm eating Campbells straight out of the can for a month.  Every year, I save up strength for a week, recover for another, because it's a sea of people at Christmas Village.  So many many smells, competing music, traffic around Love Park, the people.  We're bundled up but our eyes so I have no idea where my body ends and yours begins.  I didn't know they said I'm his abuser.  I didn't know bc i'm not.

Steph and Rich even forced me to go to dilworth on the morning of the 25th, luckily looked like 5 years after the apocalypse, we saw not a single soul walking from 12th Street.

I don't live in fish town never have, Steph asks for a tour, I research like crazy, walk around for hours with both.  But I'm his abuser?  Please help me understand.

Whyyyyy?

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